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Time to Change

Sun Oct 9, 2011, 6:52 AM
Decided that my previous entry was there long enough, I'm sure the world now understands my displeasure with said director of my favorite childhood memories-turned-modern-day-movies.

So anyway; on about my life.
What life?
Yeah, about my sentiments at this point.  I work, I go to school, I find some time for brief moments that let me pretend I have some form of a social life, I read my daughter a book before bed, and I glare at my computer for all the things that sit as of yet unaccomplished instead of sleeping.  Yep.  Fun.  Who needs sleep anyway?  It's way too overrated.

Speaking of; went to the doctor a few days back and he announces to me quite happily; "You are anemic and need Iron!"
"Oh, that's great," I say with horror, "I'm allergic to Iron.  How am I supposed to fix this?"
"Well," he replies, still way too cheerful for my state of dread, "I will prescribe you Iron pills."
"How does that help with the allergy?"  I ask.
"Just take these for two months, and we'll see what happens."
"Oh...okay...and if I die on the bathroom floor from allergies?"
"We'll deal with that when we come to it."
Okay, so maybe that's not EXACTLY how it all went, but that's the gist of the conversation as it were.  -_-;  So my choices are - stay sick from lack of Iron, or get sick from trying to fix the lack of Iron.  Damned if you do, damned if you don't at it's finest.  *facefloor*
(I will note here that I've taken the pills for two days and I am NOT dead yet, so here's hoping.)

Moving on; Science and Fiction.
The fanfiction story I have been faithfully writing on for almost 3 years now is finally coming to an end.  Officially down to the last 2 chapters, and it's terrifying me.  I've never actually finished a long, plot woven story before.  Short stories, no biggie, but novels (or epic novels as this one has been deemed)?  Not so much.  I have managed to post almost every week, at least once a week for 3 years...yes the last few chapters are falling to the wayside at 2-3 weeks between postings and I know it has everything to do with my own apprehension about ending it.  It's not for a lack of knowing where I'm going with it - the plot has been woven and it has bloomed into this beautiful development of an ending, I just fear that when I do write it, I'll rush through it and leave it wanting for the quality of the rest of the story.  *laments*  Or, maybe it's just because I have a hard time seeing things end; even my own.  I'm not sure.

And to end it all; Winter is looming, and so is my yearly deep depression.
Screw it all.
Seriously.
I fraggin hate that I know this is going to happen and there's nothing I can do about it.  Every winter I get depressed, my mind goes dark and sour, hateful of the world and no amount of good, joyous, lovely things I have around me, I feel bittered.
So in my grand attempts to ignore the inevitable, I have been seeking other means of dealing - all which are failing.  -_-;  I've lost myself in Minecraft for far too many hours and there seems to be no dragging away from it.  It's not that I obsess over it when I'm away from my computer; I actually hardly even think of it, but once I am home and preparing to write, or do anything else that might be considered productive - to Minecraft I go.  It's such an enabler of procrastination.  But I love it so...

Well now, wasn't that pleasant?  No?  Yeah, I didn't think so either.  Gimme a few months, I'll be cheery again, I'm sure.

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I like to write, draw and generally goof off any chance I get. I generally lean toward the darker side of life, ie~ death, torture, pain, suffering...that kind of thing. Not that I think everyone/thing should suffer, it's just my way of being. It's a part of life that can lead us to something beautiful, more whole in the end. A trial worth striving through to become a better person.
Um...I love to read and hunt down good fictions in my spare time.
I love art of all forms.
I have TOO MANY animals, but they are my friends and kids and too special to part with...
I do have a dog named Ratchet. Yes. I am obsessed. What?
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I have a daughter that is THE WORLD to me. (though sometimes my world causes me complete chaos...I wouldn't have it any other way ^_^)
Married for 3 years now. Can't believe he's tolerated me this long! LOL!
I have 3 tattoos. Yes, the one posted here IS mine, it IS real and it IS awesome.
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Am venturing to post my fictions here...hence the 'obsessed' comment. You'll understand I'm sure.
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If there is something I didn't cover that you want to know...~stalker~ ^_~, no really, feel free to ask. I'm generally pretty friendly and I like to converse via interwaves. I'll probably answer you, however if it is a question about something not yet revealed in my fiction, be prepared for the fun game of avoidance. I'm good at it.

Current Residence: The Middle of Nowhere Prarie Edition
Favourite genre of music: Slightly off center.
Favourite photographer: The ones who take awesome pictures
Favourite style of art: Obscure
Operating System: The one with a view.
MP3 player of choice: The one that DOESN'T eat my computer.
Shell of choice: Shell?
Wallpaper of choice: The awesome one.
Skin of choice: Um...the one on my body?
Favourite cartoon character: For someone who watches so many cartoons...this question has too many answers.
Personal Quote: "FRAG YOU TO THE PIT YOU GLITCHED PSYCOPATH!"
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I saw that and immediately thought of you. :D

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Wow! That's awesome, thanx for the link1!

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No problem! ^_^

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Thanks for the fave!!

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Welcome!

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Hey! :wave: Thanks for faving 'DOTM: Optimus and Ironhide' :)

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